Visions from my 19 year-old self:
sunday june 2
bored agressions
2002 3:41pm
now listening: jimi hendrix live at woodstock; the star spangled banner/purple haze/bad ass rippin' improv
why are sundays so goddamn lazy?? i'm sitting here with sweats and an old, baggy t-shirt with FG "tennis" on it from freshman year of highschool. my hair is not done up and i look like shit. so i throw a beanie on so you can't see my terrible haircut.. not terrible, just not anywhere near acceptable looking unless i put some type of hair gel/glue/spray, etc on it. yes, i cut my hair myself. and i'm fucking proud of it.
i can't seem to fall asleep when i tried taking a nap and this is just some sort of rambling outlet for my boredom. so i can't wait to get out of here. HERE... college. [college name redacted] university. not that i don't like my roommate, but it'll be nice to be back home with my *own* room and not having to listen to her christian music shit. but hey, i bet she'll be glad to get out of listening to the punkrock so it's mutual. so nice not having to turn down the volume everytime she's here. so nice to listen to music as loud as i want in my room. only dilemma: my stereo is broken and won't play cds. fuck.
i still need to take myself out of the registrar for fall term and send some official transcripts to the art [school]. what can i say.. i'm a slacker. arg. i hope i get in.... if not, where else will i go?? [community college]? community college is fucking lame. i've already found out from going to [university] that i do NOT like the conventional college/university. so i'm going to retard art school. _hopefully_ don't count the eggs before they hatch. har-har. i feel like a dork because i never say that..
so this girl from makeoutclub(.com) found me and my webpage. i freaked for awhile. it gets a little weird when people know the people/places you talk about. i've always tried keeping my online and 'real-life' world as seperated as possible. but i also realise to truly seperate the online and real-world, one must not talk about the real-world online... and how fucking possible is that with a journal?? so..hello. if you know me in real life, go ahead and read this at yer own discretion. you found it after all and i'm not here to stop you. just..don't go telling everyone please? these are pretty personal thoughts, etc.
MOC (the accepted acronym for makeoutclub) is pretty lame. i don't even know why i joined. i guess the appeal to find people just like me. ha. in a world where everyone claims individuality and wants to be 'different', there are still people JUST LIKE YOU. so give up and stop trying. moc is lame because some of them try too hard, i think. emo is shit and i hate the elitist attitude about it all. it's like the abercrombie of punkrock. it's uberhip and very fashion conscientious. sure, punkrock has its fashions too; the mohawks, the leather jackets, the patches and safety pins and dyed hair. "punk by the book" is lame too. but the whole attitude of it all is very i-don't-give-a-fuck. you don't have to dress up for shows and feel inferior about it thinking everyone else is judging you with that holier than thou/indier than thou attitude one might feel at an emo show. one learns not to care and to be above all that shit after awhile. i am above all that shit. for the record, i never dress up at shows.
at least there's one cool person i met at moc. she has an extra ticket to the sold out white stripes show this june 7th and i'm contemplating on whether or not i want to go. nicole will be there!
what else to say? i think i'll go find ref and ask if she wants to drive around and do something. perhaps take pictures since i forgot to bring my camera while camping. laksdjfs! she's probably as bored as i am...
until next time.
Monday, March 16, 2009
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
Posts
18 wandering stars:
I enjoy reminiscing and seeing how far I've come. One big reason I decided to post archived writings from the past was because of your archive posts. :P
i saw one of your archived ones! very reflective.. loved the bit about the stars.. i'm glad i could inspire you to post old entries! i had no idea.. i thought you enjoy these tho since you seem to comment on a lot of them :) it's fun to see how far i've come. like this.. this post is lame :P
I think Sundays fall into two categories: You either feel very relaxed, or you feel like you want to throw yourself under a bus.
Emo started getting popular back when I was in college - it wasn't so much the Emo music but the Emo KIDS that made me want to staple things to their head.
And Punk Rock... Oh dear. To me, it seems that punk rock, a long time ago, became just-another-group-to-join. Like, instead of the whole thing being all about "fuck it" and being different, it became just as bad as buying the Gap clothes and hanging out with your other khaki friends. Somehow a lot of the individuality in it died.
Well, at least for a good portion. there are still true fuck-its out there.
Then again I'm not a punk-rocker. And the bands I like that quazi-fit are more like Sex Pistols, Ramones, The Clash, Social Distortion ( which means I haven't paid attention in a long time).
Hope you did take pictures!
haha i agree with you on emo and punk rock. it's all the same. i was pretty much a poseur back then. and this was so long ago i don't remember if i took pictures!
I wish I had my posts from my old blog. I would be fun to look back in time at myself. Do you recognize yourself as you, or as someone else?
Don't let your music taste making you feel like you have to change your appearances according to "whats acceptable to it". Especially when it's really extreme.
I so agree with you.
Jimi Hendrix Live at Woodstock. Hard to beat that. No wonder you attract hippies. And what's wrong with that, right? ;-)
I linked to you from The Pagan Sphinx.
my blog is still too young to see a difference in writing, but this past year has been such a growing year for me, i can't imagine who i'll be in a year from now and how different my writing will be.
336 posts from my old blog are gone. My online world and my real world got too close together. Like oil and water.
Oh, well. Sometimes starting over can be a blessing.
Of course, like most people, I'm just bound to make the same mistakes I did before, with a new background.
Oh God. You cut your own hair? .. You are just the coolest person ever. I'd probably end up poking myself in the eye with the scissors, or cutting off my ear.
E G - I guess I still recognize me as myself.. But I can see the differences and where I have changed.
Lolita - Yes! I used to be in the scene a bit.. Ok, I admit I was a bit of an emo kid AND punkrocker.
Pagan Sphinx - Nothing wrong with that! Jimi Hendrix is one of the best!
imerika - this year has been a big growing year for me too..
Mr. Apron - Not sure what happened there, sorry :( and I thought you were even anonymous!
Cheryl - hehe, I used to cut my own hair when it was as short as it was back then (pixie style).
OMG! You cut your own hair?! How short? So, how did it look?! Omg! Kudos to you for trying that out. I can't even cut paper straight so I'd never even bother trying to cut my hair. yikes!
I like your "indier than thou" phrase. I think I'll borrow it. I write about boredom and found your blog, would you believe (talk about keeping your several lives separate). See my ThePowerOfBoredom.com where I collect bits about boredom for a book...later. I also coach a lot of bored people by phone to figure out who they want to be and get where/what they want to get.
BTW, there are colleges for those who don't want a standard college, one in California gave a few students credit in sociology or geography for taking a road trip across the USA; they just had to take video, decide on a theme, and edit it in to a documentary on the theme. Another one in Florida...sorry I can't remember their names but there are some colleges that are as indie as you are!
Hey Floreta,
Thanks for stopping by my site. I remember those college days...sigh.
Actually after being in the "real world" for the past yr. and 1/2, I sort of miss school. Well, at least the spring breaks and winter breaks. Those were the days : )
P.S. love the name of your blog. Very cool.
now i wish i had that old blog of mine!!
ChinkyGirlMel - haha, I used to cut my hair when I had a short pixie cut. I'm going to cut my hair (professionally) short again this weekend. :P
Letitia - Thanks for stopping by! Funny what you can see through searches. Your website (profession?) sounds pretty cool.
Write Girl - I miss school too. :( When I got to college though, I actually didn't get spring breaks, etc. It was a quarterly, year long school!
seher - maybe archive.org has it!
"The Abercrombie of Punk Rock" has to be one of the greatest lines, ever.
Chase - why thank you. :D
Post a Comment